Checking In – August 5, 2026

It’s been a while since I posted anything – video, blog, photos…  I’ve been really busy.

I’ve also been reevaluating my intentions behind filming and posting.  I do still fully believe that God guided me to this avenue of expression in my life.  I also think that I got caught up in the hype of what it would mean if I ever “went big” on YouTube or published a best-selling book.

I want to do what God has called me to do, but I want to make sure I’m doing it to glorify Him and not to fulfill some deep-rooted desire to be “successful” in the eyes of society or my family.

I’m the daughter of a mother and father who owned their own businesses.  I’m the granddaughter of a successful missionary and author.  Many of my family members own their own successful businesses or have incredibly successful careers, if you judge them by today’s social standards.

And I have an inconsistent podcast, published a prayer journal that hasn’t sold a single copy, I’m working part-time in retail again, and I have a pretty useless associate’s degree.  Again, if you look through the lens of the world’s standards for success and achievement.

I can say that I’m happier than I used to be when I had a “successful” career at a “respectable” company.  I’m more fulfilled with my part-time job than I ever was with my full-time career.  I get more done at home now than I ever did working 40+ hours a week.

But I feel the tug of more discipline and better commitment to my goals now than I did when I was posting videos every day.  I want to truly be effective in the work God has called me to do.  I want to have meat-and-potatoes discussions about Holy Spirit and His incredible personality.  I want to ask tough questions and answer even tougher ones.  I want to talk about the things that so few are talking about right now, but it’s what society really needs to hear.

I don’t know when I’ll be back in front of the camera again, but I hope it’s soon.  I so thoroughly enjoyed filming and discussing the Bible, but I also know that I’m in a season of growth and development.  It’s not time to share what I have again.  Not yet.

Stay blessed and stay bold.